a story of a BUT and a STILL

it is not the last day perhaps
but still, it is.

as it is the breakthrough for us
to go for a higher level.
but still, it doesn't seem to be like a farewell.

I have been with them for the past
thousands days.
but still, it is different now in one way or another.

I hope that today gonna be a great one
but still, no one asks to stay back.

probably egoism is over me that I can't let you all off
but still, I can't get rid of that egoism.

then I start to tell myself to accept that bitter fact
but still, it is not as easy as drinking water.

don't blame yourselves because of my complains
but still, you all are great ones in my life.

on the contrary, I blame myself to post this on my blog today.
but still, it is the only way for me to feel a bit relieved.

LOVE YOU ALL :)

a heart-to-heart :D

There's sth wrong with me, I admit. I wanna shout at the top of my lungs. I am not sure what actually makes me to be feeling this way. I am just way very indecisive over every single thing these past few weeks, unfortunately till now. And, I later find that perhaps bcs of the forthcoming test or the upcoming big plan after the semester test or the euphoria of being a going-to-be senior or okay, reasons are stucked here for the moment. I haven't revised anything and I am still in this relaxing condition (blame on the consecutive public holidays! haha), *oh this is not me! hey, anita! that big day will come soon. Don't slack too much, girl. Oh, one friend once told me that I was slacking over here and they were stressed over there. Oh my, may god bless you all girls, for the upcoming O's. So that you all are given the strength to overcome those obstacles during the lessons, tests, and most importantly while studying. Afterall, endurance is needed :D I know you are having hard time there and I am nothing to be compared. But still, I believe that you can do it. You all are strong little girls, remember? I'll pray for you all, my girls. Hope to see you girls soon, oh november please come faster then.

Back to the laptop *oops no, back to the topic AHAHA you know, some Indonesian reality and comedy shows are really recommended. They somehow helped to boost my mood up.

These past few weeks, after the monthly test to be exact, had been hectic anyway. I had to go for a once a week rehearsal (which is on sunday! hey, can you imagine? your sunday afternoon..arghh), piano exam (with one of my songs was like OMG and it needed intensive practice), preparing for the little "untold", doing my flash project (this one really fed me up), doing my bahasa project (to summarise a non-fiction novel), eehhm what more ya, oh yes, I keep on thinking to start studying but lastly it remains as a thought afterall, no action is taken till now. Hey anita, you complain too much. Yes, I really do. Nevertheless, I keep on telling myself to be grateful of what I've now and feel lucky. I remember my last week composition assignment topic was about whether I believe in luck and I was telling about being lucky all the way. I bet my english teacher will absolutely say that it is out of the box. And I will answer "bcs I did it in last minute oh miss" but it must not be spoken out for sure *giggles* I knew that I didn't have to do it in my last minute, but I felt that my ideas would pop out abruptly when I was doing my assignments in a rush. Another one, I was trembling throughout my piano exam, my heart was in my mouth, and that was a little bit ruining the atmosphere and my concentration. Anyway, I was done with it!

I've been so into novels, movies, and songs lately as I felt that I am away with the fairies while having those. It helps. Yet, I have to come back to the reality. My friends, some perhaps, are listening to this Justin Bieber's songs and marking "eenie meenie" as favourite. Then, I start to listen to it as well and yes, it is good! Recent top movies that I had watched were the "Hachiko", a must and I burst into tears when the movie was about to end though I was pretty sure that I wouldn't cry, and just now, I watched this "IP MAN 2", a totally recommended movie of the year, sorry if I was a bit exaggerating, but yes, it was superb!

And, there are many friends of mine who are celebrating their so called sweet 17th parties this year and I am happy for them :D hey, we are adults! though I am still a going-to-be. Here are some pics taken during one of the parties which was held in a new driving range in Medan. It is an area where golfers can practice their swing (as was quoted from wikipedia.com). Sounds cool, right? Yes.


So, I have poured out a lot for today. Gonna hit bed soon! Have nice days ahead guys (:

::BONNE NUIT::

SEMUA TENTANG KITA :D

play this song then scroll down :D


SEMUA TENTANG KITA

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Teringat saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa








has just re-watched my secondary three farewell party video (REJECXTED) and felt so touched for it and one thing for sure, you all might be laughing all the way XD....OMG! how I wished to be back at that time. anw, it is really recommended to re-watch it! or i think we have to re-watch it again one day TOGETHER, agreee? I miss you all very muuuuuccccch, REJECXTERS :D

MARCHING in MARCH

AS' sweet 17th birthday surprise :D (behind the scene)

happy sweet 17th birthday, AS :D

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Happy 3rd birthday CHONG WEN !!!!

qipao for the greeting xiao jie

this is the costume for the reading of
CHONG WEN SONG-poem performance
love it ♥

endurance :D

Well, hello. It has been like centuries since my last post. I am actually searching for my illustrator project's materials that i ended up here, writing these nonsense. And yes, i have to admit that i hate doing the "searching" thingy due to my laziness teehees :). But life has to go on, soon or after, i still have to accomplish the project *sigh and FYI, i got not only one to work on but TWO! okay anita, stop complaining :X

And so, there's nothing special recently except yeah you know, last week was the Lunar new year and also the valentine's day. Honestly speaking, i didn't enjoy neither the Lunar new year nor the V day at all. I thought there was sth wrong with me to have these wrong feelings, but, NO, I assured you not, because my friends did too! they agreed with me.

I feel so dead in class these days as the "schooling" is so boring. yes, BORING. Can you imagine that you come, sit, copy notes, chatting, then go home or else tuitions perhaps, and you will repeat the same activities for the next five days. I do sometimes think that I have been making a wrong decision by choosing to be in the social science. But yeah, that's life here, in the social science class, which is way very different from that in the nature science class.

Okay, I am short of topics to write now. and so, i have to go work on my project. I know it's gonna be freaking annoying that you have to do projects today while tmr is a holiday. Nevertheless, I have to endure whatever is tmr. and yes, I have tuitions tmr morning. It is just so GREAT that you have tuitions during holiday. I repeat, that's life, school life, a life that you wish to be in again in the future. So, gals, you all have to really enjoy your school life now . If you feel that you don't have a nice school life, try to create ONE then! :D

TODAY, just exactly one year ago :)

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
I was there
at the place which had
given a lot of amazing experiences.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
was the day of mine
that led me to another BIG days.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
had taught me part of
the real meaning of LIFE.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
showed me how tough
was life without family
near you.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
was my first training into
an independent girl.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
when all my courage
was a bit crumbled
when I hugged my mom before
got into the immigration gate.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
was my first night
in a foreign country
without mom & dad.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
had led me to
study in a school
that was way so different
with my former school.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
alert me that bells
are fabulous music
instruments to be played.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
had given me a chance
in life to get along
with people around the world
esp. Asia.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
had taught me how
to solve problems
which were tough sometimes
by ourselves.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
had taught me on how
to deal with different
personalities of people.

TODAY, just exactly one year ago
had let me to have 11 friends
to go through my
7 mnths and 12 days life there, in singapore.
They are
THE ENTWINED TWELVE

thank you, friends :)
there is no other word
that can describe my appreciation
to you all.

YOU ALL ARE GREAT AND
PRECIOUS FRIENDS
I EVER HAD (:

empty deep inside :(

hulllooooooo :)

i'm back. hahaa :D. i bet you all must know of the term "homesick". and what about "hostel sick" haha. well, that's what i suffered now. wuaaaaaah. just miss them, my friends, and the atmosphere there badly till it got into my dreams. OMIGOD!

don't ask me what's my feeling right now as I don't even know. Happy? Quite. Sad? Eeem, nope. Angry? No. Dissapointed? A bit. Anxious? Nope. hueeeeh. It's just empty deep inside, blank :(
Oh, wish that I could be back to 2 years ago wheeeennnn...........(you know it! but i tell you it has nothing with what so called "love" as it goes with sth called "friendship" and "real life")

(*wishing) get brighter and nicer days always (u guys toO) and of course days full of laughter XD

p.s: one more thing! exam is just around the corner. 3 weeks' time! GANBETTE!!