Ain't onerous, too much only.

Tossing aside my accounting books and starting to jot down nonsense? :)

Tralala.

Few words to give you some clues for my most hectic month, uhm, this week has ultimately caused me lacking of sleep that my cough and influenza are not any better from last week. Tight schedules keep me as busy as an one-armed paperhanger. So, why do I call it hectic? First is because that I needed to rush over my pending requirements for my uni application and I eventually decided to send it by next month. Second, I had to review all my so-called music test papers in one week, hate composing urrgh. Third, I suffered from this GREAT cough and influenza for weeks and that they had utterly successfully amazingly ruined my days! Lastly, is my second monthly test at school and today is the fourth day, and uhm doing not so good at those as I find that I am nodding off easily these days and longing aloud for my comfiest bed. Consequently, I can hardly find time to practice recently. But ANYWAY, I still have to live my life to the fullest yes yes? GOGOGOGOGOGOGO!! :D you all too, get up and tell yourself you are not all alone here in the world, it takes two to tango, remember? If they don't show up, go find them! :)

Other than that, I am now feeling not right inside. It really makes me sick. Now I realize how is it to be living in dubiety. Oh well. Up in the air, like jugglers in a freeze-frame — John Updike

A "NOT" RANDOM

It was just unbelievable. I didn't know why this would eventually bothered me much recently.

And this came to ma mind :

'AM I BEING FOOLED?'

WALKING DOWN THE LANES

HULA HULA! I'M BACK PEOPLEEEE :D

Having been away from the blogging world for almost two months bcs of my tight schedules (really?! well, anw, just put it that way hahahaha) has made me missing the-jotting-down-nonsense-activity so much that I have decided to die die must blog during my ten-days holiday.

Honestly speaking, my third year shs life is not that much fun as my second's. No reasons to be revealed. But the exciting part is that there's a number of SEVENTEENth parties awaiting and the most worrying part that I am very sure that most girls worry too : DRESS. I sometimes have no idea of what to wear to Z's party bcs I had ever wore those dresses to A's-Y's. Seriously, I firstly thought that I was the only girl in the world who had that kind thinking and to my surprise, my girls also thought that way. The main reason why, is that those parties are actually having the same GUESTS! That's it. This thought actually came to me when I was doing my daydreaming = they, the guests, wouldn't actually remember what you wore and they simply had it forgotten the following day unless they were your special ones, they, would definitely remember it. Do you get what I mean? Well, only those who are perhaps your best friends or even your boyfriends! are the ones who will absolutely remember what your outfits are in certain events.

These are what I have been into during these two months :

1) I am getting used to my new class and getting along quite well with my new classmates.

2) My new desk-mate is a kind chum and surprisingly, we share a lot that I have never been expected, food, life, fashion, ppl's attitudes are inside our list! Nevertheless, I have been always dreaming of sitting back with my 3-years-and-no-one-can-ever-replace-her junior high school desk mate.

I MISS YOU TO THE M TO THE A TO THE X!

3) I am not getting any fatter although I have been eating like monsters.

Then I am thinking like : is it a gift??

but my grandma,aunties,uncles,maids,teachers,neighbours (only the first three are true) HAHAHA keep complaining that I am too thin and need to eat some more. Then, if I have been eating like monsters, do I have to eat like dinosaurs perhaps? <--- don't take it seriously ppl HAHAHAHAHA

4) I love to have a part-time job but my tight schedule fails me to do so. Let say I can, I'd love to become a teacher, teaching nursery little cutie kiddos or teaching in some language courses. Apparently my wish ended up me selling handmade hair accessories (read : bows) to my friends. It was firstly my hobby to make handmade bows that my friends also started to order some. Well, why not? But honestly, this has actually been a very time-consuming one.

5) My gank (cooler, huh?) and I dressed up in red and white on August 17th celebrating Indonesian 65TH Independence Day and one of my friend's birthday which fell on the same day. We rock all day long although it rained during our half-way to my friend's house, intending to give her a surprise. Here are some cool picts taken during our mission-possible :D

Randomness.

FORGIVE myself for being stupid

and

FORGET that you ever existed

WOOT!

Hello! New term is about to start in two days! And everything turns out to be what-I-really-hate: I am not longer in the same class with my former classmates. So sad ya. The problem is just way very complicated I can tell.

Positive thinking (angel) : Hey Anita, you can meet new friends,

feel the new atmosphere, mingle more, know other perso

nalities, face some not-usual problems and a lot more ya.

A bit-negative thinking (devil) : Hey Anita! It's your last year in senior high. Have you forgotten your june wish girl? To spend your 3rd year with the crazy whatsoever limited-prikitews? Sounds like what's-that?! But I really love them. They have their own ways to express themselves and that what make them very funny and unique! We have mr.lebay, ms.often-bullied-but-i-likey-you, ms.loves-to-laugh, mr.bigboss-beware!, mr.BC, ms.cheesybites, ms.deskmate-sharing-lover, mr.muak, ms.cempreng, mr.o-lank!, mr.momo-oldest and a lot more!

To conclude, because the a-bit-negative have more points that positive ones, thereby I am glad to say ME WANT TO BE BACK yihaaaa :D

hey, it's JUNE ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Today is exactly 'the-three-hundred-and-sixty-five-days' of my sixteenth birthday surprise. It was one of my sweetest moments I have ever had in my life that it was hardly be forgotten.

One sunny Sunday morning, my mom told me that we were going to have lunch in Grand Angkasa as our relatives from Surabaya were visiting Medan. I wasn't suspicious of mother's ideas when she asked me to go to the beauty parlour and change my t-shirt into a new pale pink blouse that she had just bought for me. I thought it was because I was not presentable on that day.

We arrived at our destination when the clock was about to strike twelve. The cafe wasn't that crowded like usual. Probably it was too early for lunch or what. The cafe ran a buffet system. Mom asked me to sit first while waiting for our relatives. Mom didn't allow me to take any food as she said that it was not polite to eat first before the guests were there. Not long after, I heard some noise behind me. But I refused to turn as I thought that people started coming in to the cafe since it was almost 20 minutes ago when I arrived. However, I started to be curious of whom they were talking to and why they were staying at the same place, as the source of the noise was at one spot I supposed, not moving. Curiosity kills the cat, I turned my head to look behind. And and and and and and I was totally shocked that I burst into tears immediately. Apparently, the noise came from all of my lovely classmates who were standing in rows neatly behind me (not behind me exactly, it was roughly 135 degrees to the right side behind me) with masks on their faces. One of my besties, Pretty Ros, was standing in front of the line-up with a medium blackforest cake on her hands. There were "16" red candles on top, waiting for me to blow them. I was too overwhelmed with joy that it took me a few minutes to stop crying. I felt like I was little kiddo who cried over toys that my mommy wouldn't buy for me. But, this was absolutely a different case. It was "tangis kebahagiaan" or perhaps "tangis terharu" in Indonesian HAHAHAHA. After I had blown the candles, I hugged them and shaked their hands one by one. Afterwards, we had our lunch, had a long chit-chat and took a number of pictures together. Afterall, I was extremely happy and I would like to thank all my lovely charming nice amazing wonderful magnificent (look up your dictionaries for other similar meaning vocabs HAHAHAHA) FRIENDS for giving me an unforgettable and heart-warming surprise on my 16th birthday, although it was one day earlier, it didn't matter at all. Well, once more I would say, I WAS TOTALLY SURPRISED as it was really really really beyond my expectation, bcs I had just arrived at our lovely hometown that morning. Thank you guys.





it is not the end of today's post :)

hey, I received another birthday surprise for my 17th birthday on the day I held my birthday party night, last 2nd June. It was a VIDEO BIRTHDAY GREETING!! from
THE ENTWINED TWELVE :) though I just got to watch it the day after you all posted it as my laptop didn't has the flash player. lame. haha. But, honestly, the video is absolutely GORGEOUS :) a zillion THANKS to you all girls :D

♥ AC LOVES YOU ALL ♥

Downs

I thought I shouldn't log in to any social network anymore, bcs that it could only bring me pains. I didn't know where else I could share this, then I decided that to write was my last option. Forgive me for being so sensitive recently, no, it was actually had lasted for almost a year when, yes, you knew it. I didn't ask for any special treatment or anything that could make me feel being noticed. I didn't feel regret to "once" be part of you all. On the contrary, I felt great as it had helped me to transform into a different girl, a stronger one. I learnt to see the world wider. I learnt to know that everything wouldn't be like what you were expecting, and you had to be prepared when the worst thing happened to you. Oh well, there were many times when I started to feel like "Oh, I am wrong all these times, they are still who they were." Well, people change.

But, I don't know, perhaps devils have been surrounding me or what. I just don't know. I am too lost, nowhere to go. Neither I know I am right nor wrong. Anita, you have to go forward, don't keep complaining please, oh angels are surrounding me now. LOL. Stupid? Egoist? I don't know. Yes, I have them, why should I be this sad. I think I should start a new journey. "I'll forget the world that I knew. But I swear I won't forget you." these two lines were taken from my favourite song-vanilla twilight.

I am just hoping that someday, they will prove to me that my perception is absolutely wrong. Hey, one more thing to share : if you are in great sadness and have nowhere to go, there're only two things that you can do to feel relieved - cry and write. Believe me.