hey, it's JUNE ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Today is exactly 'the-three-hundred-and-sixty-five-days' of my sixteenth birthday surprise. It was one of my sweetest moments I have ever had in my life that it was hardly be forgotten.

One sunny Sunday morning, my mom told me that we were going to have lunch in Grand Angkasa as our relatives from Surabaya were visiting Medan. I wasn't suspicious of mother's ideas when she asked me to go to the beauty parlour and change my t-shirt into a new pale pink blouse that she had just bought for me. I thought it was because I was not presentable on that day.

We arrived at our destination when the clock was about to strike twelve. The cafe wasn't that crowded like usual. Probably it was too early for lunch or what. The cafe ran a buffet system. Mom asked me to sit first while waiting for our relatives. Mom didn't allow me to take any food as she said that it was not polite to eat first before the guests were there. Not long after, I heard some noise behind me. But I refused to turn as I thought that people started coming in to the cafe since it was almost 20 minutes ago when I arrived. However, I started to be curious of whom they were talking to and why they were staying at the same place, as the source of the noise was at one spot I supposed, not moving. Curiosity kills the cat, I turned my head to look behind. And and and and and and I was totally shocked that I burst into tears immediately. Apparently, the noise came from all of my lovely classmates who were standing in rows neatly behind me (not behind me exactly, it was roughly 135 degrees to the right side behind me) with masks on their faces. One of my besties, Pretty Ros, was standing in front of the line-up with a medium blackforest cake on her hands. There were "16" red candles on top, waiting for me to blow them. I was too overwhelmed with joy that it took me a few minutes to stop crying. I felt like I was little kiddo who cried over toys that my mommy wouldn't buy for me. But, this was absolutely a different case. It was "tangis kebahagiaan" or perhaps "tangis terharu" in Indonesian HAHAHAHA. After I had blown the candles, I hugged them and shaked their hands one by one. Afterwards, we had our lunch, had a long chit-chat and took a number of pictures together. Afterall, I was extremely happy and I would like to thank all my lovely charming nice amazing wonderful magnificent (look up your dictionaries for other similar meaning vocabs HAHAHAHA) FRIENDS for giving me an unforgettable and heart-warming surprise on my 16th birthday, although it was one day earlier, it didn't matter at all. Well, once more I would say, I WAS TOTALLY SURPRISED as it was really really really beyond my expectation, bcs I had just arrived at our lovely hometown that morning. Thank you guys.





it is not the end of today's post :)

hey, I received another birthday surprise for my 17th birthday on the day I held my birthday party night, last 2nd June. It was a VIDEO BIRTHDAY GREETING!! from
THE ENTWINED TWELVE :) though I just got to watch it the day after you all posted it as my laptop didn't has the flash player. lame. haha. But, honestly, the video is absolutely GORGEOUS :) a zillion THANKS to you all girls :D

♥ AC LOVES YOU ALL ♥

Downs

I thought I shouldn't log in to any social network anymore, bcs that it could only bring me pains. I didn't know where else I could share this, then I decided that to write was my last option. Forgive me for being so sensitive recently, no, it was actually had lasted for almost a year when, yes, you knew it. I didn't ask for any special treatment or anything that could make me feel being noticed. I didn't feel regret to "once" be part of you all. On the contrary, I felt great as it had helped me to transform into a different girl, a stronger one. I learnt to see the world wider. I learnt to know that everything wouldn't be like what you were expecting, and you had to be prepared when the worst thing happened to you. Oh well, there were many times when I started to feel like "Oh, I am wrong all these times, they are still who they were." Well, people change.

But, I don't know, perhaps devils have been surrounding me or what. I just don't know. I am too lost, nowhere to go. Neither I know I am right nor wrong. Anita, you have to go forward, don't keep complaining please, oh angels are surrounding me now. LOL. Stupid? Egoist? I don't know. Yes, I have them, why should I be this sad. I think I should start a new journey. "I'll forget the world that I knew. But I swear I won't forget you." these two lines were taken from my favourite song-vanilla twilight.

I am just hoping that someday, they will prove to me that my perception is absolutely wrong. Hey, one more thing to share : if you are in great sadness and have nowhere to go, there're only two things that you can do to feel relieved - cry and write. Believe me.