MY year-end-SAIL(ing) BOAT

Yes, this year is going to end very soon and I have no idea why time passes very fast. Okay, have no special feelings towards this year but, yeah, everything is going alright. Another thing is that my senior high life will come to an end soon, too. Yup, what a short one. It was like I started to step in that class yesterday. A lot of great moments captured in heart and great lessons learned. Thanks to the new buddies who have helped me to go through this one-and-a-half-year :) you all teach me to see the world in different ways.

Ah yes, yesterday was my first concert and felt so excited about it. I performed for 3 times : a Jazz solo, a duet with little Gaby playing twinkle-twinkle little star (it was just too cute you know! aww) and a 6 hands piece (trio) with Wieny playing primo Melisa playing secondo and I playing terzo. There were 47 performances altogether, including the piano, violin, guitar and vocal performances. Enjoyed the spectacular show till the end and felt the euphoria of calming ourselves when we knew that we were performing next. The feeling itself was indescribable. Really.

Then, the after-show event was even greater one people! I attended my junior high reunion in a restaurant nearby and was emotionally touched when I got to see my girls and the oldies :') Truth to be told, I got the feeling like "reborn" you know. This was indescribably crazy I know. Ohmo, I have long to feel this happy for about years perhaps? And sad to ask when we can actually get to be together like this again. Nah, the thing is, I WAS VERY HAPPY, oh nope, I AM VERY HAPPY bcs I can still feel it till now! Love you guys :) who have lightened and coloured up my days.

PERSAHABATAN bagai KEPOMPONG lalalalala lalala lala lala

PERSAHABATAN bagai KEPOMPONG lalalalala lalala lala lala

PERSAHABATAN bagai KEPOMPONG lalalalala lalala lala lala

PERSAHABATAN bagai KEPOMPONG lalalalala lalala lala lala

PERSAHABATAN bagai KEPOMPONG lalalalala lalala lala lala~~

And also, my friends from the-little-red-dot are coming back for their hols till January! Do you see that? It's January! oh man, we are going to hang out for sure but the problem is, my eoy test is just next week till the 20th sth. Seems like everyone is pleased if he/she can just jump to the 23th which is impossible HAHAHA

Oya, Rose is having her VERY NICE trip around the world for one week HAHAHA (just kidding ya, in case you read this post). Just wish you taking big luggages home packed with a lot of things you bought for me (ehm, this one is joking too, nvm also if you want to :P) Okay, just hope you have a good time and get enough refreshments there before facing the real WAR when you get back (like what you've mentioned in your recent post HAHAHA).

Enough for today's, my sailing boat gonna reach the harbour very soon and I am totally drained bcs of yesterday's :)

::bonne nuit ::

LIFE.

This topic will never ever give me a boring effect. Well, problem comes one after the other one in one's life. But now, I begin to see problems as lessons. They teach, prepare and train us to be stronger and of course maturer in order to be able to face the REAL world in the near future where problems come from all directions, attacking you. Let alone that you don't have anyone to rely on because you are surrounded with competitors and you have to think and act very well in order to win the battlefields.

Think more widely or try to be an open-minded person. I am not saying that to be a conventional thinker is not good but, see, it is better for us to have ever gone through everything. Like what one of my tutors had ever told me.

"Miss, so, what books are good to be read? Please recommend me some of them."

"Read all books, Anita."

"Why?"

"Because all books are good."

Now, I start to understand the meaning behind it. She wanted me to read all books so that I could actually differentiate which were the good-better-best ones and also the bad-worse-worst ones. Beyond that, we can also try to apply the same system in life, to learn anything while we can. Anything.

It can be said that I am lucky enough to have been living or dealing with different communities, different people, where I can see on how they react, solve and face problems differently. That has turned me into a different girl. The main point is, I have begun to see the positive sides of what I used to think as bad ones. And, sadly, I have also begun to see the negative sides of what I used to think as the GOOD ones. Oh well.

I am going to share quotes-maybe some of you have known them-but i'm sure some others haven't.

"No friendship is perfect in this life. There are only people who try their best to maintain it."

Truth to be told, this is what I have been doing all these times. Although sometimes I am feeling like giving up, but, friends, please never do that.

"Don't seek for happiness because its your own choice to whether be happy or not"

I totally agree with this saying! Be happy, people! Don't be thrown into your own so-called sorrow-hole (sounds like black hole, heh? HAHAHAHA) too deep that you are caught in the middle of nowhere. This brings back to the main topic, life, you will never survive this life without a companion. Thus, go tell, share, shout, chat with your family members or friends if you have problems. It can at least help you to have yourself relieved in some ways.

However, there are situations where we really can't tell anyone about our problems. Probably the only thing that you can do is to calm yourself at the mean time, try to see things from different angles, from different perspectives I mean and positively for sure. Then, tell if you think it is the right time to.

Nothing's good now.

"Take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space. And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face." - Phil Collins

Ain't onerous, too much only.

Tossing aside my accounting books and starting to jot down nonsense? :)

Tralala.

Few words to give you some clues for my most hectic month, uhm, this week has ultimately caused me lacking of sleep that my cough and influenza are not any better from last week. Tight schedules keep me as busy as an one-armed paperhanger. So, why do I call it hectic? First is because that I needed to rush over my pending requirements for my uni application and I eventually decided to send it by next month. Second, I had to review all my so-called music test papers in one week, hate composing urrgh. Third, I suffered from this GREAT cough and influenza for weeks and that they had utterly successfully amazingly ruined my days! Lastly, is my second monthly test at school and today is the fourth day, and uhm doing not so good at those as I find that I am nodding off easily these days and longing aloud for my comfiest bed. Consequently, I can hardly find time to practice recently. But ANYWAY, I still have to live my life to the fullest yes yes? GOGOGOGOGOGOGO!! :D you all too, get up and tell yourself you are not all alone here in the world, it takes two to tango, remember? If they don't show up, go find them! :)

Other than that, I am now feeling not right inside. It really makes me sick. Now I realize how is it to be living in dubiety. Oh well. Up in the air, like jugglers in a freeze-frame — John Updike

A "NOT" RANDOM

It was just unbelievable. I didn't know why this would eventually bothered me much recently.

And this came to ma mind :

'AM I BEING FOOLED?'

WALKING DOWN THE LANES

HULA HULA! I'M BACK PEOPLEEEE :D

Having been away from the blogging world for almost two months bcs of my tight schedules (really?! well, anw, just put it that way hahahaha) has made me missing the-jotting-down-nonsense-activity so much that I have decided to die die must blog during my ten-days holiday.

Honestly speaking, my third year shs life is not that much fun as my second's. No reasons to be revealed. But the exciting part is that there's a number of SEVENTEENth parties awaiting and the most worrying part that I am very sure that most girls worry too : DRESS. I sometimes have no idea of what to wear to Z's party bcs I had ever wore those dresses to A's-Y's. Seriously, I firstly thought that I was the only girl in the world who had that kind thinking and to my surprise, my girls also thought that way. The main reason why, is that those parties are actually having the same GUESTS! That's it. This thought actually came to me when I was doing my daydreaming = they, the guests, wouldn't actually remember what you wore and they simply had it forgotten the following day unless they were your special ones, they, would definitely remember it. Do you get what I mean? Well, only those who are perhaps your best friends or even your boyfriends! are the ones who will absolutely remember what your outfits are in certain events.

These are what I have been into during these two months :

1) I am getting used to my new class and getting along quite well with my new classmates.

2) My new desk-mate is a kind chum and surprisingly, we share a lot that I have never been expected, food, life, fashion, ppl's attitudes are inside our list! Nevertheless, I have been always dreaming of sitting back with my 3-years-and-no-one-can-ever-replace-her junior high school desk mate.

I MISS YOU TO THE M TO THE A TO THE X!

3) I am not getting any fatter although I have been eating like monsters.

Then I am thinking like : is it a gift??

but my grandma,aunties,uncles,maids,teachers,neighbours (only the first three are true) HAHAHA keep complaining that I am too thin and need to eat some more. Then, if I have been eating like monsters, do I have to eat like dinosaurs perhaps? <--- don't take it seriously ppl HAHAHAHAHA

4) I love to have a part-time job but my tight schedule fails me to do so. Let say I can, I'd love to become a teacher, teaching nursery little cutie kiddos or teaching in some language courses. Apparently my wish ended up me selling handmade hair accessories (read : bows) to my friends. It was firstly my hobby to make handmade bows that my friends also started to order some. Well, why not? But honestly, this has actually been a very time-consuming one.

5) My gank (cooler, huh?) and I dressed up in red and white on August 17th celebrating Indonesian 65TH Independence Day and one of my friend's birthday which fell on the same day. We rock all day long although it rained during our half-way to my friend's house, intending to give her a surprise. Here are some cool picts taken during our mission-possible :D

Randomness.

FORGIVE myself for being stupid

and

FORGET that you ever existed

WOOT!

Hello! New term is about to start in two days! And everything turns out to be what-I-really-hate: I am not longer in the same class with my former classmates. So sad ya. The problem is just way very complicated I can tell.

Positive thinking (angel) : Hey Anita, you can meet new friends,

feel the new atmosphere, mingle more, know other perso

nalities, face some not-usual problems and a lot more ya.

A bit-negative thinking (devil) : Hey Anita! It's your last year in senior high. Have you forgotten your june wish girl? To spend your 3rd year with the crazy whatsoever limited-prikitews? Sounds like what's-that?! But I really love them. They have their own ways to express themselves and that what make them very funny and unique! We have mr.lebay, ms.often-bullied-but-i-likey-you, ms.loves-to-laugh, mr.bigboss-beware!, mr.BC, ms.cheesybites, ms.deskmate-sharing-lover, mr.muak, ms.cempreng, mr.o-lank!, mr.momo-oldest and a lot more!

To conclude, because the a-bit-negative have more points that positive ones, thereby I am glad to say ME WANT TO BE BACK yihaaaa :D

hey, it's JUNE ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Today is exactly 'the-three-hundred-and-sixty-five-days' of my sixteenth birthday surprise. It was one of my sweetest moments I have ever had in my life that it was hardly be forgotten.

One sunny Sunday morning, my mom told me that we were going to have lunch in Grand Angkasa as our relatives from Surabaya were visiting Medan. I wasn't suspicious of mother's ideas when she asked me to go to the beauty parlour and change my t-shirt into a new pale pink blouse that she had just bought for me. I thought it was because I was not presentable on that day.

We arrived at our destination when the clock was about to strike twelve. The cafe wasn't that crowded like usual. Probably it was too early for lunch or what. The cafe ran a buffet system. Mom asked me to sit first while waiting for our relatives. Mom didn't allow me to take any food as she said that it was not polite to eat first before the guests were there. Not long after, I heard some noise behind me. But I refused to turn as I thought that people started coming in to the cafe since it was almost 20 minutes ago when I arrived. However, I started to be curious of whom they were talking to and why they were staying at the same place, as the source of the noise was at one spot I supposed, not moving. Curiosity kills the cat, I turned my head to look behind. And and and and and and I was totally shocked that I burst into tears immediately. Apparently, the noise came from all of my lovely classmates who were standing in rows neatly behind me (not behind me exactly, it was roughly 135 degrees to the right side behind me) with masks on their faces. One of my besties, Pretty Ros, was standing in front of the line-up with a medium blackforest cake on her hands. There were "16" red candles on top, waiting for me to blow them. I was too overwhelmed with joy that it took me a few minutes to stop crying. I felt like I was little kiddo who cried over toys that my mommy wouldn't buy for me. But, this was absolutely a different case. It was "tangis kebahagiaan" or perhaps "tangis terharu" in Indonesian HAHAHAHA. After I had blown the candles, I hugged them and shaked their hands one by one. Afterwards, we had our lunch, had a long chit-chat and took a number of pictures together. Afterall, I was extremely happy and I would like to thank all my lovely charming nice amazing wonderful magnificent (look up your dictionaries for other similar meaning vocabs HAHAHAHA) FRIENDS for giving me an unforgettable and heart-warming surprise on my 16th birthday, although it was one day earlier, it didn't matter at all. Well, once more I would say, I WAS TOTALLY SURPRISED as it was really really really beyond my expectation, bcs I had just arrived at our lovely hometown that morning. Thank you guys.





it is not the end of today's post :)

hey, I received another birthday surprise for my 17th birthday on the day I held my birthday party night, last 2nd June. It was a VIDEO BIRTHDAY GREETING!! from
THE ENTWINED TWELVE :) though I just got to watch it the day after you all posted it as my laptop didn't has the flash player. lame. haha. But, honestly, the video is absolutely GORGEOUS :) a zillion THANKS to you all girls :D

♥ AC LOVES YOU ALL ♥

Downs

I thought I shouldn't log in to any social network anymore, bcs that it could only bring me pains. I didn't know where else I could share this, then I decided that to write was my last option. Forgive me for being so sensitive recently, no, it was actually had lasted for almost a year when, yes, you knew it. I didn't ask for any special treatment or anything that could make me feel being noticed. I didn't feel regret to "once" be part of you all. On the contrary, I felt great as it had helped me to transform into a different girl, a stronger one. I learnt to see the world wider. I learnt to know that everything wouldn't be like what you were expecting, and you had to be prepared when the worst thing happened to you. Oh well, there were many times when I started to feel like "Oh, I am wrong all these times, they are still who they were." Well, people change.

But, I don't know, perhaps devils have been surrounding me or what. I just don't know. I am too lost, nowhere to go. Neither I know I am right nor wrong. Anita, you have to go forward, don't keep complaining please, oh angels are surrounding me now. LOL. Stupid? Egoist? I don't know. Yes, I have them, why should I be this sad. I think I should start a new journey. "I'll forget the world that I knew. But I swear I won't forget you." these two lines were taken from my favourite song-vanilla twilight.

I am just hoping that someday, they will prove to me that my perception is absolutely wrong. Hey, one more thing to share : if you are in great sadness and have nowhere to go, there're only two things that you can do to feel relieved - cry and write. Believe me.

a story of a BUT and a STILL

it is not the last day perhaps
but still, it is.

as it is the breakthrough for us
to go for a higher level.
but still, it doesn't seem to be like a farewell.

I have been with them for the past
thousands days.
but still, it is different now in one way or another.

I hope that today gonna be a great one
but still, no one asks to stay back.

probably egoism is over me that I can't let you all off
but still, I can't get rid of that egoism.

then I start to tell myself to accept that bitter fact
but still, it is not as easy as drinking water.

don't blame yourselves because of my complains
but still, you all are great ones in my life.

on the contrary, I blame myself to post this on my blog today.
but still, it is the only way for me to feel a bit relieved.

LOVE YOU ALL :)

a heart-to-heart :D

There's sth wrong with me, I admit. I wanna shout at the top of my lungs. I am not sure what actually makes me to be feeling this way. I am just way very indecisive over every single thing these past few weeks, unfortunately till now. And, I later find that perhaps bcs of the forthcoming test or the upcoming big plan after the semester test or the euphoria of being a going-to-be senior or okay, reasons are stucked here for the moment. I haven't revised anything and I am still in this relaxing condition (blame on the consecutive public holidays! haha), *oh this is not me! hey, anita! that big day will come soon. Don't slack too much, girl. Oh, one friend once told me that I was slacking over here and they were stressed over there. Oh my, may god bless you all girls, for the upcoming O's. So that you all are given the strength to overcome those obstacles during the lessons, tests, and most importantly while studying. Afterall, endurance is needed :D I know you are having hard time there and I am nothing to be compared. But still, I believe that you can do it. You all are strong little girls, remember? I'll pray for you all, my girls. Hope to see you girls soon, oh november please come faster then.

Back to the laptop *oops no, back to the topic AHAHA you know, some Indonesian reality and comedy shows are really recommended. They somehow helped to boost my mood up.

These past few weeks, after the monthly test to be exact, had been hectic anyway. I had to go for a once a week rehearsal (which is on sunday! hey, can you imagine? your sunday afternoon..arghh), piano exam (with one of my songs was like OMG and it needed intensive practice), preparing for the little "untold", doing my flash project (this one really fed me up), doing my bahasa project (to summarise a non-fiction novel), eehhm what more ya, oh yes, I keep on thinking to start studying but lastly it remains as a thought afterall, no action is taken till now. Hey anita, you complain too much. Yes, I really do. Nevertheless, I keep on telling myself to be grateful of what I've now and feel lucky. I remember my last week composition assignment topic was about whether I believe in luck and I was telling about being lucky all the way. I bet my english teacher will absolutely say that it is out of the box. And I will answer "bcs I did it in last minute oh miss" but it must not be spoken out for sure *giggles* I knew that I didn't have to do it in my last minute, but I felt that my ideas would pop out abruptly when I was doing my assignments in a rush. Another one, I was trembling throughout my piano exam, my heart was in my mouth, and that was a little bit ruining the atmosphere and my concentration. Anyway, I was done with it!

I've been so into novels, movies, and songs lately as I felt that I am away with the fairies while having those. It helps. Yet, I have to come back to the reality. My friends, some perhaps, are listening to this Justin Bieber's songs and marking "eenie meenie" as favourite. Then, I start to listen to it as well and yes, it is good! Recent top movies that I had watched were the "Hachiko", a must and I burst into tears when the movie was about to end though I was pretty sure that I wouldn't cry, and just now, I watched this "IP MAN 2", a totally recommended movie of the year, sorry if I was a bit exaggerating, but yes, it was superb!

And, there are many friends of mine who are celebrating their so called sweet 17th parties this year and I am happy for them :D hey, we are adults! though I am still a going-to-be. Here are some pics taken during one of the parties which was held in a new driving range in Medan. It is an area where golfers can practice their swing (as was quoted from wikipedia.com). Sounds cool, right? Yes.


So, I have poured out a lot for today. Gonna hit bed soon! Have nice days ahead guys (:

::BONNE NUIT::

SEMUA TENTANG KITA :D

play this song then scroll down :D


SEMUA TENTANG KITA

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Teringat saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa








has just re-watched my secondary three farewell party video (REJECXTED) and felt so touched for it and one thing for sure, you all might be laughing all the way XD....OMG! how I wished to be back at that time. anw, it is really recommended to re-watch it! or i think we have to re-watch it again one day TOGETHER, agreee? I miss you all very muuuuuccccch, REJECXTERS :D

MARCHING in MARCH

AS' sweet 17th birthday surprise :D (behind the scene)

happy sweet 17th birthday, AS :D

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Happy 3rd birthday CHONG WEN !!!!

qipao for the greeting xiao jie

this is the costume for the reading of
CHONG WEN SONG-poem performance
love it ♥

endurance :D

Well, hello. It has been like centuries since my last post. I am actually searching for my illustrator project's materials that i ended up here, writing these nonsense. And yes, i have to admit that i hate doing the "searching" thingy due to my laziness teehees :). But life has to go on, soon or after, i still have to accomplish the project *sigh and FYI, i got not only one to work on but TWO! okay anita, stop complaining :X

And so, there's nothing special recently except yeah you know, last week was the Lunar new year and also the valentine's day. Honestly speaking, i didn't enjoy neither the Lunar new year nor the V day at all. I thought there was sth wrong with me to have these wrong feelings, but, NO, I assured you not, because my friends did too! they agreed with me.

I feel so dead in class these days as the "schooling" is so boring. yes, BORING. Can you imagine that you come, sit, copy notes, chatting, then go home or else tuitions perhaps, and you will repeat the same activities for the next five days. I do sometimes think that I have been making a wrong decision by choosing to be in the social science. But yeah, that's life here, in the social science class, which is way very different from that in the nature science class.

Okay, I am short of topics to write now. and so, i have to go work on my project. I know it's gonna be freaking annoying that you have to do projects today while tmr is a holiday. Nevertheless, I have to endure whatever is tmr. and yes, I have tuitions tmr morning. It is just so GREAT that you have tuitions during holiday. I repeat, that's life, school life, a life that you wish to be in again in the future. So, gals, you all have to really enjoy your school life now . If you feel that you don't have a nice school life, try to create ONE then! :D