一 日三 秋

Run out of ideas of why I could post sth like this. Aaaaaaaaa. The title itself means, "One day, three autumns." I'm kind of 'galauu' isn't it? HAHA Yes, the feeling when you wanna see that someone right at that time, the desire to actually talk to that someone, stroll together anywhere anytime. But you just can't and you end up doing foolish things like the endless day-dreaming, repeat those 'special' songs on your ipod again and again and sth like you press 'enter' with your eyes closed and you regret the next second. It feels weird, funny, stupid but you are walking on air that you are grinning from ear to ear the next split second :)

clueless.

currently in love with this tumblr site http://therulesofladies.tumblr.com/

pink.

roommates :)

miss this little cute monster :')

J-town!

I am now sitting at starbaks, planning to do my mindmaps and ending up blogging. Running away from the endless practice! for a moment bcs the whole building is now having the "fogging" thing. So, been here for a month and so, I am feeling like dreaming? Time really flies. Time does sail. Ya, it was just like yesterday that I stepped in this place. Catching up with other great music competitors. They are friendly, we laugh a lot let ya know. And I am changing my medanese-indo's into jakarta's so called gaul style of talking like LO GUA LO GUE hahahaha LOL :D Taking myself back to roughly 2 yrs ago when my first time to have friends frm jakarta! gladys and niken. Staying far from the hustling bustling of jakarta, feeling like not staying in indonesia, it's just like one tiny isolated city that has everything. Mom said that I have fair-er skin, less pimples!, look fat and sassy! when going back to medan for lebaran holiday last week. Know why? bcs my days here are just between my dorm-B building-dorm-B building-dorm-B building, and B building is located right in front of my dorm which can be reached by 2 minutes on foot. Ehm, then I am gonna freak out tmr bcs mid-test is just around the corner. And why tmr? bcs I got no place to practice today. And why no? bcs the fogging is going on now unless I want to be found poisoned by the gas lol I joined violin class and english club. It sounds pathetic well, bcs there's no international class for music faculty and english club is the very last choice to practice english here, so sad huh? I miss my USED-TO-BEs! family,friends,high school,parties, this is gonna be long HAHAHA anyway, here are the picts taken during orientation last month :)

I wish

I succeed :)

So, the clock now is about to strike eleven. Can't doze off yet. So pissed off knowing that I blog right now bcs mood boosted up by this misterpiraten. Another good news is that, I succeed! in freezing my feeling (don't know how long this will be going on) HAHAHA. Congrats me :D I let go of everything and feel so light, yet I am still trying so hard to never look back. Guys, just let go of what's not yours. It will, by the time it stays by your side for long. Journey is just about to begin.

And yes, another very goodgoodgood news is that I am officially off from my braces! :D

My little tweet especially for you :

"Here comes the end. I know I shd let you go one day. Thanking you fr hurting n colouring up my life. Oops, my teeth I mean! Bye, braces. :D"

Bet some of you might think of a guy or sth, no, it's my lovey dovey ex-braces LOL miss you! <3

64 hours more! and I'll be there fighting against my feeling to actually burst into tears. No! I wouldn't. Let's see! :)

the simple changes = my big troubles

The recent weeks have been tough. Fiuh. Totally powerless. I really can't accept the fact that it would end up this way. Courage is desperately needed to face what's next. I can barely stand on my feet. I can barely think without the tiny pieces thinking abt you misterpiraten. It is out of my thought that you will do this to me. So, this is how it was feeling back then, huh? My mind is superstucked to think a way out of this. Lesson learned : ANYTHING could change at ANYTIME.

'The feelings we have at this time are not strong enough to maintain what we have now.'